Difficult to Swallow, But It Can Be Digested

Difficult to Swallow, But It Can Be Digested
by American Kabuki

Carm sent me this video today, perhaps because she sees my own struggle with this concept that is so articulately spoken by this man in the video.  I don't know if Carm has mastered living in the NOW yet, but she's certainly well on her way to testing the water there.  And she tells me "the water is fine come on in!"  Her life has become a dance in quantum time.  I've met many others who are well on their way there too.

I can't say I fully grasp this concept.  Some of you seem to think I am highly evolved, but I am just like you. 

The last 10 years have been hell on earth for me. I even died and came back.  I couldn't even exit this madness it seemed. But I'm glad I didn't. I still had some lessons to learn.  I have a good friend in Los Angeles who's had her own 10 years of hell with a sick and dying husband. Its difficult for me to imagine she chose that reality.  There's not a day that goes by that I don't pray so that she has strength to bear the awfulness of it all. Having said that, I am awe struck by the depth of spiritual growth that experience has given her.

My own struggle with health, financial hardship that followed, and the subsequent restoration of health and vitality, has rapidly accelerated my spiritual growth too.  Yet its hard to imagine I asked for all that. Yet I do know that after two GW Bush administrations, and my own inability to improve a relationship,  I had given up the desire to live. The only thing that I seemed to succeed at was being a good father to my daughter.  But nobody else was too happy with me.  I did not want to live in a world where this blood lust filled nation was going.  I was creating my reality and nearly succeeded in leaving this reality, had there not been divine intervention. There is much I do not understand, but I have learned to trust the divine and I learned first hand how very much we are loved  by the Source of All.

10 months ago I felt my own frustration at the pace of change on this planet.  I didn't know how to help things along, but I  had an idea. And that idea began an act of my own little creation of reality, this blog to help others through this time of transition.  You've seen where this has taken me. places, subjects, and persons I never dreamed of encountering. A year ago many blog sites wouldn't even post what I wrote in comments.  I had an intent to do something good, and I set out to make it happen.  And everything I needed to accomplish it came.  More will come.  And it will astound me.  I haven't quite mastered this in my personal life, but I am working on it.

I picture the man in the video about like Snake A above.  He sees the egg, he's just having a bit of trouble getting his jaws around it.   Many people do not yet even see the egg.  I see myself like Snake B, I swallowed the egg, but haven't quite digested it yet and made it part of me.  Someday it will be.

- American Kabuki

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